February 10, 2014.

I woke up from a sleep at about 6 PM.

I remember that I slept to a 'question why'.
It wasn't actually 'a', but it's more like 'some' because literally it's not only one question.

So yeah, I remember that I slept to some 'questions why'.

Like..

What's the point of this? The point of going to school and get nothing on my brain or maybe got something but then forget it soon or later? Why should we waste our time on that? 10-frickin'-hours are not really that short time for a day, ya know?
You know, sometimes, I wish I was one of them. Whether it's Ed Sheeran or those bad boys and girls. By Ed, his dad said, "It's okay if you don't go to school if you want to be in art stuff." And by those bad boys or girls, they can always simply come to school whatever they wanted. Or not. Without caring about the absent. It's not like I want to do a wild stuff like smoke or come to a night life or having some 'fun' stuff like that. It just that I want to stop wasting my time in this kind of way. It's sometimes pointless.
I found that to learn something, it's a heart-will. I can never learn something if I feel like I don't want to. And I know that it is a wrong thing, but hey, what can I do?
Well, I just realized that maybe all I need is a month of free days. So that I can manage my time to make things right. To learn things by myself.

... And by that, I woke up from my sleep to an 'I want to disappear or simply just not exist'. To rid the routines. And to stop these burden.

Later on from bed that I slept on, I heard my sister asking to my Mom in the kitchen, "He said that he go to a college while working. Which college?"

Mom didn't answer.

"Mom? Which college?"

Well, my Mom is pretty busy with her activity so I don't think that she'll answer it.

And then, my sister went to the middle room of this house and asked him straightforward like, "Which college that you on?"

Yes, I can still heard her voice from that room. At first, I don't really care about it. Like, whoever it is, it just a dude who bought my Mom's cuisine and I honestly don't care, because it just my sister that curious about things a lot.

But then, I was up from bed and walked to the middle room to take my phone. I saw my sister, still talking with the guy. And I realized that.... he is blind...

Wait a.... he go to a college... while working... and I myself have a complete body that given by God, grumble over things like this?

What kind of world this is?