Nice Songs, innit?

So the sky accompany my eyes for dropping some water a couple of hours ago. Cool. I can't say much. But maybe those songs can:

1) Billy Ruskin

lyric:

Mr Ruskin
Come and paint my picture
We’re losing sleep
'Cos we steal the week

Now who’s your best friend?
Can you introduce me?
See I can’t seem to even let you breathe

When I dance with Billy Ruskin in my mind’s eye
Please let me forget that I’m standing on my own
And I am my own best friend and I need me to see
That I am more than what is hiding in me

Come and show me
If you can
See I know you’re me
But I can’t seem to understand

If you know me
Place my hand on mine
And we will resurrect the time

That we lost
When you left my mind
It’s psycho-paranoia disappearing in time

Come and show me
What makes you tick
I need you to get out of my mind quick

When I dance with Billy Ruskin in my mind’s eye
Please let me forget that I’m standing on my own
And I am my own best friend and I need me to see
That I am more than what is hiding in me

2) Bonus Track
It's actually has no title. I mean, the title really is "Bonus Track" Weird, huh? But it really is eargasm, and awesome lyrics tho.

lyric:
I want to be real
Not some conscience to myself
The way you worship, never ending
Some idol who’s pretending to be true

How you put upon yourself
A man who never seems
To answer to your words
So go and make me over

I’m a fly upon your neck
You can’t control me
I have my words, my voice
My strengths, my choice
And I can cut as deep
Just as deep as I need

Don’t want your advice
Cos I’ve made up my own mind
The way you bore me with the stories
Of far and distant times

I’ve heard it before
So don’t try that on me
The way you worship, never-ending
Some idol who’s pretending to be true

It could be you
Brainwashed by the lies
It’s no surprise
You’d wanna waste your time

I’m a fly upon your neck
You can’t control me
I have my words, my voice
My strengths, my choice
And I can cut as deep
Just as deep as I need

3) Last Ones Standing (Example Cover)

lyric:
I tell the taxi driver, pull up over there
Sprint down the street and we don't pay the fare
Onto the district line, force open the door
There's loadsa seats free but we cotch on the floor

Last night we both died a death
Just flowed til no cider left
Jumped out the wrong side of bed
Now another night of wrong lies ahead

To be a kid again, Nancy and Sid again
Need medicine, cut out the middle men
Run free, only way to get rid of them
Never gonna catch us

We're on the run
And I'm about to lose it
Cause she's like a gun
Ain't no afraid to use it

C'mon we'll catch our very last train
Light our very last flames
We'll knock it all back and forget our names
Cause it's our last night
And it's one last fight
We're the last ones
The last ones standing

Go tell the waitress, we'll have 2 rum and cokes
Ask for the bill and then we'll split when she goes
Out the fire exit wearing some strangers coat
We'll sing it out til we're sore in the throat

This ain't childs play like pass the parcel or
Build a castle, just a couple of rascals who
Go harder, live faster
Fight til the end like Jason's Argonauts

Cause lifes a carnival
There's no reason, motives marginal
Don't care if we're cold and starvin
We'll still be laughin when...

We're on the run
And I'm about to lose it
And she's like a gun
Ain't no afraid to use it

C'mon we'll catch our very last train
Light our very last flames
We'll knock it all back and forget our names
Cause it's our last fight
And it's one last night
We're the last ones
The last ones standing

The last ones standing
hmmm
The last ones standing

4) Pause

lyric:
You know I got to get away
To find some peace and sanity
I’ve been playing hide-and-seek too long
Shaking, making, everybody waking
Setting the hi-fi bleed
Keeping me back
While you’re spinning my track
That’ll knock you off your feet

Monkey see what monkey do
But I’m a monkey telling you
I just think that we should take a break
Tickity-tock the clock
With the hip-hop
And alonestar backing me up
We won’t stop
I gotta be searching for my peace of mind
Now let the track rewind

And play, let the music play
It came, so let the music say what it feels
Shame, shame it took too long
To see that you were wrong
Now turn the song back on

This is Alonestar coming at you
With a new style
Kicking dust
Ready to bust
It's Urban Angel
Artistic, flipping the script
Who d'you really want to get it with?
Ed and Alonestar
We're like live wires sparking
Ready to blow
We've already sown our seeds
We're just waiting to grow - blow
We're gonna lift you like a shock to your body
Metaphorical speech when we come and see
You ducking for cover
Sheeran Lock coming ready to rock
With Urban Angel and Alonestar
And Ed - keep it locked
Let the beat pump
Drop the bass but don't stop
We're kicking the sound
Let the bass bins pound
We're gonna roll
Can you feel me now with my body?
Get down to the sound
It's Ed Sheeran in the place
And Alonestar rising up
We gotta rise up
I said rise up

And play, let the music play
It came, so let the music say what it feels
Shame, shame it took so long
To see that you were wrong
Now turn the song back on

5) Quiet Ballad Of Ed

lyric:
In shadow there lies hope
Cut tension with a knife
I find it hard to cope
Stop playing with my life

You analyse my fears
Analyse my dreams
Choke on burning tears
Through my silent screams

Things aren’t what they seem

Tell a hundred craftsmen to work on me
Tell this army of angels to make me breathe
Open doors, just to take away the key
I’ll let you all see, that I’m doing better

Watch me fall
As I stumble at your feet
Always losing in this game
Your lies cut me deep
And you don’t even know my name
With your consistency
To always watch me crawl
And my durability
Not affected at all

Still things aren’t what they seem

Tell a hundred craftsmen to work on me
Tell this army of angels to make me breathe
Open doors, just to take away the key
I’ll let you all see, that I’m doing better
That I'm doing better

Feel the pain
On my brain
Feel the strain
As I, start to decay

Feel the strain
Every passing day
Feel the pain
As I, start to decay

Tell a hundred craftsmen to work on me
Tell this army of angels to make me breathe
Open doors, just to take away the key
I’ll let you all see, that I’m doing better
That I'm doing better

6) Stevesong



lyric:
Stevie was a boy
Who turned into a man
He never had no master plan
But I knew that he could

Find right from wrong
Sing me a different song
He told me which road to take
And now I’m gone

Keep on singing
Make her life whole
Stevie you’re winning
And I just feel cold
Take your life beyond the mark
You can do no wrong
When I lose my way in the dark
Keep singing your song

Please come follow me
I find it hard to breathe
Please come follow me
I find it hard to breathe

7) Who You Are (Jessie J Cover)

lyric:
I stare at my reflection in the mirror
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the start
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are.
(who you are [x11])

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mold
The more I try the less is working, yeah yeah yeah
And everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the start
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are.

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows, like boom!
Just go and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good luck, goodnight,
With a smile, that's my home!
That's my home, no...

No, no, no, no, no...
Don't lose it all in the blur of the start.
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are.
Who you are (35x)


Big thanks to Ed Sheeran for recorded it.

Hello, Midnight.

Idk, it just I haven't write things in a while. Frickin' busy. And as always, my sleeping pattern is currently fucked up.
Some people ask and wonder how I do this. How I get up in the morning. How can I didn't look like sleepy.... To be honest, I don't know either, people.
I slept for only 3 hours last night plus an hour by the evening after school. Then I drank 250ml of coffee, and now I'm not sleepy like at all.
But most of all, I think it's all because my brain that didn't want to shut up and keep me awake. Some questions haunt me and I haven't been found the answer. Yet.

Alas, I'm pretty afraid about next week. Due to the national examination, the intensive class will start on next week. I gotta home at 4 p.m every-effin'-day except Friday. I'm afraid that I couldn't get any sleep on the evening.

I shoulda finish my chemistry right now. Well, technically, I've finished it but I haven't re-write it on a new paper. Tsk, I really hate writing. If only I could type using keyboard on paper -__-


Well, that's that, I think. Have nothing much to write here. See ya.

This One For You, R.

Hi there, dear best friend of mine! Welcome to my kingdom!

First, I want to apologize if this place is too public for you and I write those things about you. But really, this blog is kinda of my world. I don't think there's people out there who actually read my thing. Or maybe there is, if the post is posted for a competition's sake. Also, since the first time I made this blog, I intended it for me and from me. I don't really mind if there's no one out there who read this page. But the thing is, you have to read this post. --Okay, seriously. Why do I have to describe about this blog to you? Ha ha, idk man, but keep reading, btw :p

It's okay if I call you "R" in here, right? Well, I kinda feel like I'm mentioning that one zombie whom fell in love then he returned into a human.... *long pause*







Nah, man, R's really fine, right? Cause if I mention your name in here, I believe that I have to ask your permission firstly. First time I wrote this is on October 16th. But today, October 29th, I edited this writing.



R, I knew you since I was 3 or 4. I don't quite sure what ages exactly. But I knew you since my family moved to the house next to yours. I have no idea how's my world gonna be if we didn't move that day.

Well, this is embarrassing, but I have to admit that I dropped my tears after I wrote that sentence above in class by October 16th. There was no teacher so I took a note from my phone. And I promised to myself that I'll post the note in my blog as you go.

You know, R? Thank you so much for being someone in my life for like 13 years. Whoa, it's 13! I didn't recognize it at first 'til I finally wrote it. We all know it's Taylor's lucky number. I hope it'd be a luck number for both of us, too. I think, it was the best 13 years that ever happened to my life. You're younger than me but you taught me a lot.

Without you, maybe I would really suck on English. Without you maybe I'd never bake. Without you maybe I'm just a typical average teens who bitch about unnecessary things like you-know-what-I-mean... teenage-love-life. We have a same track mind, right? So I don't really need to explain everything. :p

You know, R? I might say that some people in my life is my best friend. But you're different. You are on a different level. You are way level above them in my life.

There might be some people in my life who would make me laugh. Or some people who would listen to my story. Or some people who support me upon my dreams. But really, there were no person but you, who would make me laugh, listen to my story, support me upon my dreams, doing crazy things like playing with shadows when there were no electricity, baking some cookies, hang out with me like there's no end, or even stay on their house and yet feels like mine and then stay awake until it's dawn.


Some people said that you're arrogant, you're not that nice girl as they expect you to be, sometimes. But they just didn't know who you are. I know in fact who you are. Like Anne Frank said, "We don't tell each other everything, because we always together." Because we knew what happened to both of us without even telling. So I knew you, who you truly are, and fuck what people think about you cause I respect you in my life.

R, I don't think you remember this. But I think this is how's our friendship began. Well, I don't quite remember how it is, but it's flashing memories, ya know? Like when you said about you remember how your brother scared upon A Aris. It's kinda how this is. I remember we once fought. I don't remember why we fought, but the thing is, we fought against each other. You pulled my hair and vice versa. Dede was there, trying to separate us. And she did it. I remember how's your face looks like. Full of angry. Well, people said that you were a mean child while I was the one who don't want to lose on a battle. So maybe it was the caused of our fight.

Hence, I think Dede told your mother about our fight and your mother told mine. You know what happened after that? I got lecture from both of them. My mom and yours. They said, if you fight me, I shouldn't fight back because you're younger than me. I was an innocent child who nod to what these old people said. But now I think I was silly like seriously why would I let myself to lose in a fight?! -- Ha ha, kidding. It's a relief to obey upon what they said that day. Cause if I don't, we might be hate on each other right now.

I also remember you were that little kid who loves cooking since you were a little. Remember that day when we made 'tempe goreng'? I think it was when we were 5 or 6. Well.... there was an accident when we made it.

You sat on a chair and I didn't because there was no chair left. So as you stand up to did something with the flour which there on the table, I picked your chair, and you didn't recognize it. When you about to sat back, you fell because there were no chair on your back. And you cried. You told Dede I pulled you. What a lie, in my thought. So I tried to explain what happened to them (Dede and our mom), but then I felt sorry because yes, it was my fault to make you fell. Well, this is awkward cause I feel like this is a guilty pleasure.

Well, R, so much things that happened to both of us. Like seriously, it's 13 years long, and if I write them in here. It could be a novel of our silliness.

R, you once went to America and I accompanied you to the airport that day. You know what happened in the car as I went home? I dropped my tears, and idiotically my sister shouted it like, "Si ade nangis." And how silly I am to reply it with, "Enggak da, cuman kelilipan." What a cliche answer like in a cinema. They won't believe it, I know. But heck it. It's none of people business if I cry or laugh, right?

And yesterday, maybe you saw there was some water in my eyes. Well, R, to be honest, I don't even know what the fuck were these water doing in my eyes. I... tried to hold it, but I just can't.. So I let it out as little as possible.
In car, I sat on the second row. It was your mom's request. But that's okay, really. I sat on the right side. I starred outside the window, along the way. And I didn't recognize it that there were water on my cheeks. So I wiped it. And it fell again. And again. And again.. This might be overrated, but I heard your voice from my mind in the car. And it was sounds so clear because it was so quiet. No one really knew that I cried because I made no noise.
But don't worry about me. I remembered that last night, the first tears that dropped was from the right eye. Study said that if the first tear comes from the right eye, it means a tear of happiness. But if it comes from the left eye, it means sadness. So I believe that that last night tears was a happy tears for you. R, I know that it has been your dream to go to America. Congratulation for that. You finally reached it.

Oh, btw, I stopped crying as your mom started a conversation, then we talked about nothing like city light or traffic or whatever, I don't even know what I was talking about. And then, boom, the car accident, which I told you, happened.

Well, I hope you'd comeback, not only for next year. Even if I got my dream, I planned to come here once a year, ya know?
What make me sad is, I don't know when will I meet you again except for next year. Maybe on some important events like you said. But what if there's no important events anymore?

Promise me you'd always be my best friend. People said that it's a long-last friendship if it happened for more than 7 years. Please prove me that they right. People said that friendship ends when each of person stop telling story. Promise me that you'll keep telling me about great things that may happen to your life in there. Please email me your pics with mickey mouse and those frickin' princesses at Disneyland. Tell me how awesome your class is. Tell me there were no stupid boys anymore or girls who always scream like it's their own frickin place. Tell me how beautiful winter is. Or how much degrees in your place. I can't wait to hear them.

R, as Charlie said, I hope things are really good with you.

But if something went wrong, or something bad or even worst happen, I know it will fine soon, but don't forget that I always here, ready to hear all of your story, good or bad. Yes, I'm worry that much. Just promise me to keep in touch. And keep on the line. HA! You this read wrong and you correct it with 'online'. Smile if my guess is correct. Uh, wait for it. Did you realize that I typed 'you this read wrong' instead of 'you read this wrong'? Ha ha, good luck on that, buddy XD xx


love,

oh-should-I-write-my-name?